The Odds

posted on: 7.06.2009

"Never let the odds keep you from what you know in your heart you were meant to do"
- H. Jackson Brown jr.

It was impossible for me to go to the college of my dreams. Financially, unaffordable. Physically, my mother wasn't liking the idea at first (everyday i get a comment to stay from a friend or someone i know). Spiritually, i felt prepared for it. And after many months of prayer, years of dreaming, a God thats amazing, a supporting family, help from the university and a stronger will later, the door was opened. The boyfriend i had never supported the idea (maybe he would miss me a lot, or selfishly didn't want me to follow my calling, who knows), & most of my friends didn't (& still don't) understand. Everything that could make me want to give up happened. all the odds were there for me. I second guessed myself, doubted God could even do it and my parents seemed to never have a assurance wether I was going or not. But God came through. I still cherish the words the lovely Brisni said encouragingly:
Just remember, if you are seeking God's will, He will guide you

And let me tell you, it's 100% true. If He brought you to it, He'll get you through it. And In just a few days, I'll be embracing one of the biggest change in my life. Starting College away from home. I won't be able to see my mom and dad as much as i want to, only in vacations. My church and the people in it that helped me grow into who i am today will keep moving forward, working in the community without me. Im gonna miss them so much. I'll be adapting to the new culture, making new friends and enjoying my college days. It's a bittersweet feeling, But i'll be following my call and at this point, i kinda have to, since I know how much sacrifice my parents have made for this to be financially possible; And how God put the right people in my path to help me through the process of being accepted in college. He'll walk me though this. I'm sure. But this is what my heart was meant to do.

Im so sorry If i have to leave you behind in the process.

Love always (and sincerely).

6 Smiles:

  1. Oh Ash.. You have no idea how much i'm gonna miss you. But i know its ur calling and I support you. just dont forget about me ;)
    i love you <33

  2. Oh Ash.. You have no idea how much i'm gonna miss you. But i know its ur calling and I support you. just dont forget about me ;)
    i love you <33

  3. congratulations for getting into the college you've always dreamed off! and praise the Lord for His provision! :) our God is good.

    college is going to be awesome for you, that i am sure off. it will be hard being away from family and friends, but you'll soon adapt and be even stronger. all the best, ashes! Proverbs 3:5-6. ;)

  4. wow, such a sad, but lovely post.
    i love the first photo-did you take it yourself?
    i'm so happy you've gotten into your dream college, but sad if you have to leave your blog behind.
    don't forget about us, though.
    your a gorgeous girl and i know you'll have a brilliant future :)

  5. I'm gonna miss you so much. I'll keep you updated, if you keep me updated lol Love u :D

  6. I will miss you Ashley, nevertheless selfishness has not been one of my traits lately. I wont start now.

    I really hope you do well in college, I will miss you. just keep in touch and any help you need here's McFlirty Jayvier for ya.


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