last words in a while

posted on: 8.14.2012

The overall theme of my life is still love.
I'm in a place where I rather read than write, I rather be silent than speak.

This blog started as a diary, back in the days where I didn't keep a journal & facebook/myspace/twitter/tumblr didn't exist. This was like my secret lair and no one knew me. I just wrote to the air. Somehow, people started stumbling upon this blog and it grew. It was definitely God and not my own doing, for I never intended this blog to be found. It was my hiding place.
Now, I hear constant stories of people that do know me and read my blog. As the stories kept coming, I felt a weight of pressure adding itself. Not the "light" burden Jesus talked about. Before, If I posted 5 times a month that was a lot. Now, I feel the urgency to post many times weekly to satisfy expectations. This is why the Lord has been keeping quiet when I pray for this blog. I made it mine instead of His. I apologize. I've lived on your encouragement & comments; I've yearned for your approval. It cannot be! No more.
This blog is not meant to entertain you; this is actually my life, my story.
I will not live or die on people's opinions about me, about my life.

"He has great tranquility of heart who cares neither for the praises nor the fault-finding of men. He will easily be content and pacified, whose conscience is pure. You are not holier if you are praised, nor the more worthless if you are found fault with. What you are, that you are; neither by word can you be made greater than what you are in the sight of God."
—Thomas a’Kempis

As school approaches, I want to cut back in social media a bit. You'll barely notice it. I won't be completely gone—just my words. You'll probably just see a wordless blog for a bit, with a few quotes here & there from the book I'm reading "The Hiding Place". And if you follow Darling Companion, you'll get to read my words from time to time.

Thank you so much for understanding.

Love always,

p.s. the FAQ is up

15 Smiles:

  1. love the raw honesty and how you yearn for everything you do to be done to glorify God alone. im know He will bless your time away and continue to fill you up. The Hiding Place is one of my favorite books!

  2. Take as much time as needed for you're break =) I can relate to that pressure of needing to post several times a week... but it's simple too much!

  3. Perfectly understandable. I would rather read something from deep within a Sister's heart than little light bites of entertainment :) You're wonderful and I pray you keep growing in love and wisdom, with everything God shows you. Much love xx

  4. definitely, I've appreciated this blog in my feed because of who you are. media can take over if we let it. ONLY if we let it. i'm looking forward to continuing to read along as your story unfolds :)

  5. Saw your questionnaire post on Lark and Lace and now following. Love your blog!
    xo sandra

  6. As always, a wise decision from a woman chasing after the heart of God. x

  7. I've been feeling the same. the exact same. It's so interesting to me how much blogging has really pushed me to evaluate who I am and why I do what I do.

    I'm so glad to have 'met' you and for some reason I feel like we're going to meet or cross paths sooner than later. is that weird? hahah i hope not!

    you've blessed me more than you may know!

  8. i always love seeing your photography, so this'll be fun :D and your new header is beautiful!

  9. love your honesty! it really inspires me.

  10. "Humility has no substitute. The root is love."

  11. i love your raw honesty, precious one.

    since getting pregnant, i have tappered off the blogging so very much. and i felt so guilty, still do sometimes, for not writing every day, every week, like i used to do. but i am learning to abide and to rest and to listen.

    you are a brave sister and an honest one. blessings as you seek His voice amid the noise.

  12. You have such a gift with writing, so encouraged!

  13. You are so beautiful and simply exude Christ. I'm so thankful for you!

  14. And I'm so glad I've stumbled across, just like the hundreds of others who have. In less than 24 hours you have touched me with your words and I can only hope that you continue to let God shine through and inspire others with your story. Thank you for sharing your sacred place with us; because somebody, somewhere needs this haven.



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