A faith that wavers

posted on: 3.16.2011

© Simon Filip

[The following is the word I gave last friday at a youth service]

I don't have to know everything about the Lord to have a loving and trusting relationship with Him. God is love, just as much as He is mysterious. Not everything has to make sense to me in order to follow and serve Him. Recently, I have found myself angry with God. The things I was going through did not make sense! Why is the standard higher for me? Why do I have to sacrifice so much? Friends, my faith wavered. I didn't want to be faithful. I thought I was done trusting the Lord. Would He really be fulfill His promises to me? Would He strengthen me in my weakness? I'm ashamed to say that I was crumbling; like a handmade vase that lacks in the furnace of His hands. I'm standing up here to speak to someone that's doubting and wavering in faith.
Abraham was a man of faith. He knew who his God was. Romans 4:19-22 says,
Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah’s womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. This is why “it was credited to him as righteousness.”
His circumstances didn't stop him from trusting the lord. The wait for the promise to be fulfilled didn't stop him from enjoying close fellowship with the lord, in fact, he increased in faith. And I have to ask you this question: What is stopping you from trusting the all faithful God?
Is it that nothing makes sense? Let me tell you that He makes all things work for the good of those who love Him! (Rom. 8:28)
Is it that you're waiting for His promises to come to pass? He is never late! (Eccl. 3:11; 2 Pet. 3:8)
Or is it the fact that you don't know who your God is?
I can tell you who He is: He is the God who poured our His love for you on a deathly and shameful cross. He sent His son to die for us, atone our sins & give us the chance to spend eternity with Him. He did this while we were still sinners. He is the God who is capable of restoring your family, your soul and your heart, He is the one who loves you. He is there for you & has unfathomable plans to use you.

Personally, I can tell you who He is... He is the One who called my name 6 years ago, moments before I attempted to end my life. I was done with life. I had give up on it, and although my life looked promising, I didn't see a future. Praise the One who did! Because that didn't stop Him from calling me. His love brought me to my knees as I let go of the object that would send me to an eternity of suffering. I surrendered. He changed me and I have never been the same. And although my faith wavered, I was convicted quickly of who He is: I do not have to know everything about Him to love and trust Him. It is enough to have faith on His capable hands. he has creative power to call into existence. My hope can't be put to shame for He is faithful.

My prayer for you is that your faith might increase as you wait and endure trials. May you be like Abraham, who against the odds never wavered in faith. Although he wasn't perfect and he listened to his wife and had Ishmael, may you tune out all the voices that offer you alternatives! His voice is true and faithful. Obey His only. Cast yourself into His capable hands, I have yet to see a righteous forsaken. (Psalm 37:25)

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  1. Wow I needed to hear this bit of truth and encouragement this evening. For I too have struggled with the feelings of frustration & "why me" as I face the "things" that don’t seem to make sense. But all I can do is wait upon the Lord. What appears to make no sense to me makes perfect sense to Him.

    Cont. to keep me in your prayers as I will cont. to keep you in mine...once again, thanks!

    God Bless

  2. This is powerful.
    Keep writing.....
    This moved me.

  3. Dear..I understand too. I'm 32 years old & had a life full of abuse (both physically & mental) & mistreatment from people around me & even family. I often found myself asking God why me? But, I can tell you..he is faithful and right when he says he is always with you & will bring you through anything. My faith wavered many times, but I tried hard to cling on to even a thread of faith knowing all would be ok. Though things don't always make sense at the time, sometimes - even years later you will begin to understand, God's grace and wisdom will pull through and you will understand. I have learned compassion and humility from all the terrible things I went through and best of all..love, that God's love never fails and he keeps his promises no matter who else fails me. Though I have been through much, I have been given even more. And I feel God has used me in ways I couldn't see or understand & for that I am thankful. You'll pull through too..I know it. Just seek patience in the Lord and all will fall into place!! Lots of love xxx

  4. would you pleeeeease post your testimony? (up until now, of course, since your testimony isn't finished)


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