Lessons from a creative, impatient woman

posted on: 4.03.2012

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Here's a confession: I suck at waiting. I'm impatient, I don't like sitting still for too long & I expect God to reward me for waiting. I spend too many prayers asking for a waiting soul & a patient heart.

Surprise, surprise: I haven't arrived yet.

It was about two years ago that the Lord birthed in me this idea of a book. note: before I ever wanted to be someone, I knew I wanted to write a book. Even if it no one would know about it, I just wanted the comfort of knowing my book is sitting somewhere in a shelf. But the book would be about the discipline of waiting. "UGH!!!!!! WHY LORD?!!!" was my reaction. Trust me, my child tantrums were/are a sight with the Lord. Talk about attractive >_>
Yet, two years later, I am waiting once again! And darn tired of it.
Mix a little impatience with discontentment and you have a recipe for ultimate disaster & meltdowns during my quiet times. Listen, you just be thankful it's been quiet around here.

Words like steadfastness, love, hope, faith, purification, 'perfect timing' & sanctification can sure get on your nerves pretty fast. Between this chaos & school, I was desperate to create something, to paint on a canvas. It just feels like my emotions come in color tubes that explode in a surface and exit my body. I talked to the Lord, asking Him to give me something that described me right here, right now.
He confirmed the obvious; "Waiting" was the only word He said.
, so I'm waiting; give me a picture of this 'waiting'.

[Insert intense moment here: This is when the Lord blows my mind and shuts me up with His glory. Like really, I should've seen it coming!]

to be continued...

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  1. Lol I love this. My pastor once said, God will give us plenty of opportunities to develop patience. I used to be a lot like that. I hated waiting. I wanted what I wanted now. Like seriously!! God started my process when He made me wait for my husband to propose. It took 3 and a half whole years! I was going crazy. He's given me ample opportunities since to develop patience. I'm still working on it. : )

    Vonae Deyshawn

  2. i love the honesty... and yeah, me too :-/

  3. I can relate to this so much... except the whole asking God to for a waiting heart. I'll be honest, I don't ask for it, because I know inevitably He would grant the prayer! (Yeah... I know that sounds terrible, and probably is.)

  4. AH! I can completely relate to this. Even just the title of this post holds so much meaning. It can be so hard to wait when you want so badly to create something, especially when you want to do it for God and you're like, where's my opportunity!? But yes. Waiting is the answer... waiting is hard.

  5. I am so there is so many ways. I keep waiting...and it seems to goon forever. I've had more meltdowns in the past few months than ever before! He is so good to reveal Himself in the waiting though!

  6. This is going to sound so weird but as I read this I had this image of a butterfly sitting on someone's shoulder- book cover? I don't know :)

  7. I am in a season of waiting and trusting. And the Lord has been showering me with so much practical application to living for him despite the fact that I haven't really been getting an answer to what I'm waiting on He has instilled in me this newfound appreciation and joy by telling me that ALL I MUST Do is WAIT! I have no other need but to wait on Him.

    Ruth 3:18 he made it clear what our roles are.
    Mine like Ruth was to wait.
    His is to settle the matters that I wait on for and He promises that He will not REST until they are settled.

    God is working all the time for me and He wishes nothing more than to have me just wait for Him to handle everything.

    And yes, this brought me joy because it was spoken to my impatient, needy, little heart.


    love you girl. Keep on waiting! ha ha

    It does suck a lot at times though doesn't it??

  8. so so true...His timing is perfect, although it is hard at times. I am excited to hear about this book though! ;) you're an encouragement girl!

  9. I can't even begin to tell you how much we are in similar situations. As far as writing a book, the theme of it, and the current theme of your life...<3

    Proverbs 13:12

    Hope deterred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

    I hope you check out this post I have - writing about the same predicament...


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