last words in a while

The overall theme of my life is still love.

I'm in a place where I rather read than write, I rather be silent than speak.

This blog started as a diary, back in the days where I didn't keep a journal & facebook/myspace/twitter/tumblr didn't exist. This was like my secret lair and no one knew me. I just wrote to the air. Somehow, people started stumbling upon this blog and it grew. It was definitely God and not my own doing, for I never intended this blog to be found. It was my hiding place.

Now, I hear constant stories of people that do know me and read my blog. As the stories kept coming, I felt a weight of pressure adding itself. Not the "light" burden Jesus talked about. Before, If I posted 5 times a month that was a lot. Now, I feel the urgency to post many times weekly to satisfy expectations. This is why the Lord has been keeping quiet when I pray for this blog. I made it mine instead of His. I apologize. I've lived on your encouragement & comments; I've yearned for your approval. It cannot be! No more.

This blog is not meant to entertain you; this is actually my life, my story.

I will not live or die on people's opinions about me, about my life.

"He has great tranquility of heart who cares neither for the praises nor the fault-finding of men. He will easily be content and pacified, whose conscience is pure. You are not holier if you are praised, nor the more worthless if you are found fault with. What you are, that you are; neither by word can you be made greater than what you are in the sight of God."

—Thomas a’Kempis

As school approaches, I want to cut back in social media a bit. You'll barely notice it. I won't be completely gone—just my words. You'll probably just see a wordless blog for a bit, with a few quotes here & there from the book I'm reading "The Hiding Place". And if you follow Darling Companion, you'll get to read my words from time to time.

Thank you so much for understanding.

Love always,

me.

p.s. the FAQ is up